“God, create a clean heart for me and renew a steadfast spirit within me.”
My Junk Drawer
I have a beautiful french-country highboy. It is cream with gold accents. On it sits my TV, two of my favorite hard cover classics, and decor that I change with the seasons. It is my favorite piece of bedroom furniture.
Anyone who walks into my bedroom wants to sit and stay awhile. Conversations intended to last a few minutes tend to stretch beyond an hour. It is peaceful by design. The walls are brushed with the perfect shade of calm. It feels like home.
But please, I’m begging you, please don’t open the highboy’s top drawer.
The top drawer is full of knick-knacks, clothes that don’t fit anymore, and junk.
I read recently that the best way to organize a junk drawer is to take out everything you can’t live without, discard everything else, and place the useful things back in the drawer. This is a departure from my usual approach. Usually this cleaning process takes me longer because as I take out and examine what I should be throwing out, I find myself walking down memory lane. An old card from so & so reminds me of days gone by. A trinket from so & so sparks memories (good or bad). But the truth is, it’s really a waste of time to keep looking back or searching through and reading into every single thing. And I find that the more I touch something that I’ve held onto, the more apt I am to keep holding on to it. But when my objective is to clear the clutter and give myself some margin, I need to just let go.
De-cluttering My Heart
I had a conversation with someone recently where they basically said – Melissa, you have an old hurt that you need to move past.
What I realized is that my heart is like that top drawer. My old approach to cleaning out the junk in there hasn’t worked because as I touch each old hurt, I dwell there too long, remember how it hurt, give up, shut the drawer (my heart), and never move forward.
Instead, this time here’s how I approached the wound my friend told me about. I chose to keep what I treasure and throw out the old junk without touching it. It serves no purpose in my life. I need margin more than nostalgia.
And besides, how can I share my heart with someone if they have no room to settle in?
It is time for me to make room.
“Do not remember the past events, pay no attention to things of old. Look, I am about to do something new; even now it is coming. Do you not see it? Indeed, I will make a way in the wilderness, rivers in the desert.”
Isaiah 43:18-19 CSB
It’s time to clear the junk to make room for new treasures.
I’m Spring cleaning my drawers and my heart.
God is doing a new thing.