It’s no secret – I believe in Jesus. I love him. I love reading the Word. If you’ve ever shared a meal with me, you know. I’m all about Jesus.
Some seasons though, some days – they are rough. Even when I’m in the Word daily. Even when I’m at my best.
Today was rough. Bad news seemed to come from everywhere. And then I got home to my youngest kiddo having flu-like symptoms.
Most days I have faith like Peter. Remember Peter was the disciple who walked to Jesus on the water.
Well today I felt like Peter – full of equal faith and doubt. When he was in the boat, the sea was scary, then he saw Jesus, and stepped out in faith to walk toward him, but…
But when he saw the strength of the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus reached out his hand, caught hold of him, and said to him, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?”
I am so much like this. I step out in faith, then see the “strength of the wind” and begin to sink.
Here is what my strong wind looks like: when my kids are sick, when someone I love is hurting, when I lost my job contract in 2016, when I feel inadequate, when I sink in depression (like today), when I lose a friend, etc.
Loss or the threat of loss just unhinges me. Today my wind was mostly the fear of just that – the fear of loss.
On my way home today I cried out as Peter did – “Lord, save me!”
Immediately Jesus flooded me with peace. He reminded me he’s got this. Whatever the outcome, I’ll be okay.
It’s human to have moments of doubt. But instead of reaching for anything else to steady you, take the outstretched hand of the only one who can.